For the record, any post re the current situation with Racquetball Guy is not an attempt to make him out to be a bad person. He is a good man with honorable intentions and in a different time under different circumstances, we would still be together. Having said that, my heart still hurts. Therefore, I am trying to express what I am feeling. Nevertheless, know that I am not trying to portray myself as a victim. I am just going through the various stages of grief trying very hard to get to the acceptance stage.