This is one of the worse weekends I’ve had in a long time. All my friends are out of town and my younger sister, who normally has time to hang about, is busy with family stuff. So I’m all alone with crazy thoughts running through my head. I try and busy myself but nothing really seems to work. Plus the weather is so icky that I haven’t been able to go out and really enjoy myself. Oh what’s a girl to do? Part of me just wants to go back to the days where the only important man in my life was Choo-Choo. Having a boyfriend is a good thing but I’m just not dealing with the uncertainties very well. My emotions and feelings are out of control. I wish I was a lot better at this. I wish I didn’t feel so insecure and vulnerable. I really wish I had things to do to occupy my time. All I do is eat to past the time and I’m not exactly making smart choices. I wouldn’t be surprised if I gained 5 pounds this weekend. Oh goodness!