Goodness, I can’t believe my post of yesterday. Granted it was what I was feeling at the time, but its such raw honesty that it makes me feel vulnerable. That is not a state that I like to be in. Oh well! I should say that I’m feeling better this morning. I am still thinking about my mother and that probably won’t change since the 10 year anniversary of her death is on March 11th. The good news though, it that I’m focusing on remembering the positive things about her. I’m trying to draw on her strength to deal with where I’m at with my life. It’s really not a bad life, but I just want more. More importantly, I know it’s up to me to make that happen.