Being here in Montserrat confirms one of the reasons why I have stayed away. I have become even more emotional than normal. Plus feelings that I normally suppress related to becoming someone’s wife and mother are stirring. Heck, I feel like people can read my mind as one of my cousin’s from America asked me when I was getting married. This was most unnerving. And as my best guy friend pointed out to me a few weeks back being too emotional can be a major liability when it comes to relationships. As such, even though I’m having a good time, I am thinking about my more reserved life in London. Oh so crazy but true.