I know my last two entries have been somewhat cryptic, and for that, I apologize. However, I really do not feel comfortable explaining the situation. Sure Racquetball Guy has said to me on numerous occasions that I should blog whatever I feel like sharing, but I know doing so could be hurtful to him as well as me for that matter. Not because what I have to say will paint him in a bad light (it really would not), he just does not want his business on the Internet — and in many ways, and I feel the same way — particularly when we both know that there are certain people from our professional worlds reading my blog. So it is times like this I wish I was blogging anonymously. Then I would be more willing to pour my heart out. I know it would help me process some of what I am feeling and thinking. Therefore, I am trying to process things the old fashion way. This means that I am trying to be more forthcoming with family and friends about my current reality. What a strange concept, eh? I have even started writing things down in a paper journal again. So in case you were worried, I am not bottling everything up. In addition, as painful as certain aspect of this experience may be, I know that there are others out there with more complicated challenges and my life really isn’t so bad after all. More importantly, whatever the outcome, I know I will survive and grow from the experience!!