I am going through the five stages of grief. This is somewhat problematic as my relationship with Racquetball Guy is not over. It is just different. We both love and care a great deal for one another but things are happening beyond our control. So I’m trying to accept the new reality and just when I think I have passed a certain stage, I find myself back at the beginning. I am in major denial. I long for what was, what could have been and what hopefully will be once again. Hopefully time will bring true acceptance for whatever the future holds.