Breakthrough

So here we are, two months to go before the end of 2010.
Was it all I’d hope it would be? Well to be honest no. I’d really hoped that I would have found love by now. But hey, I suppose it just isn’t my time – yet! And so I’m trying to be patient and focus on other things like: losing weight, shoring up my business, etc.
I should say that MrFixItGuy made a re-appearance. After months of being apart, he came to visit me in London. We talked but nothing really changed. Did I want it to progress? Honestly, YES! Despite the reservations and doubts about him being the one, in my head, I just couldn’t seem to let it go. Interestingly, Racquetball Guy has been very good at helping me through the whole situation.
Specifically, he’s helped me realise that as much as MrFixItGuy talked about loving me, his actions said something completely different. Also, while I perhaps didn’t mean to hurt his feelings by saying “maybe we should be just friends,” there was truth in that statement so I need to own it.
And now after six months of heartache, things are finally over. Thank goodness! What’s refreshing is that I now have no desire to walk that path again. I’m not saying that I don’t think about him, because honestly, I still do. But I know in time I’ll think about him less and less which will be good as I’ll finally have space in my heart for someone else; someone who will be much more compatible. I can’t wait. In the meantime, I’m making the effort to enjoy myself and be more social. Yeah me!

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